Raquel Leviss is talking out for the primary time because the explosive “Vanderpump Guidelines” season 10 reunion. On Aug. 16, half one of many 28-year-old actuality TV star’s podcast interview with Bethenny Frankel dropped, and Leviss says she’s taken a while to herself to mirror and has lastly “come to the place the place it is sensible to me.”

Of taking a step again from the highlight, Leviss mentioned on the “Simply B With Bethenny Frankel” podcast, “A part of the rationale why I needed to take a while away is simply because it was so chaotic and loud and there was such vitriol on-line. However then the opposite a part of the rationale why I needed to go to a therapy facility was to know my behaviors and my objective was to actually get all the way down to the underside of, ‘OK, why am I selecting males which are unavailable? Why do I hold discovering myself in unhealthy relationships? What are the issues that I would like to vary about my conduct?’ And in figuring out that I wanted to make a change, I first needed to know what it was that results in these behaviors.”

The Bravo world was shocked when information broke on March 3 that Leviss’s “Vanderpump Guidelines” costars Tom Sandoval and Ariana Madix had cut up after 9 years collectively. Within the aftermath, it was revealed that Sandoval cheated on Madix with Leviss in a months-long affair. “I do need to take a second to acknowledge the damage that I delivered to lots of people. I used to be not cautious with my actions and I used to be not pondering long-term. I used to be utterly wrapped up in heartbreak and eager to get sure wants met. Trying again now, I can see that I used to be nonetheless therapeutic from a relationship from any person who I believed I used to be going to marry, and in ending that, I nonetheless have not healed but,” Leviss instructed Frankel, referencing her relationship with ex James Kennedy. “Once I was filming, I used to be consuming rather a lot to ease that nervousness, and in a actuality TV atmosphere, I wasn’t getting that secure house for me to precise my feelings in a wholesome approach.”

Leviss additionally mentioned she nonetheless totally stands by her public apology to Madix. “It took me some time to simply accept, however I discovered about love habit and it is an actual factor. It is the place you confuse depth for intimacy,” Leviss said. “And people chemical modifications within the mind are the identical chemical modifications that occur while you take medicine. So it’s addictive, and it explains why I could not cease seeing this particular person, but it surely additionally does not excuse the truth that it occurred. However now I do know higher.”

Leviss’s podcast interview marks the primary time she’s spoken out since she accomplished psychological well being therapy in Arizona. Chatting with Frankel, Leviss mentioned looking for therapy was a “very scary resolution to make.” She mentioned, “I knew I wanted assist, however I did not know what to anticipate moving into. I had the choice to go straight into the therapy facility earlier than the reunion however I made a decision to decide to my work obligation and return and movie. However as soon as I filmed the reunion and did that ultimate interview, I took a flight to Phoenix and went straight to the therapy middle.” When Frankel requested Leviss if she forgives herself, she mentioned, “Yeah, I do.”

Leviss then accused Bravo of “exploitation,” saying the community was “laughing, working to the financial institution with this scandal.” Leviss claimed she hasn’t “seen a single penny.” She continued: “It isn’t honest. And I really feel like a toddler saying, ‘It isn’t honest.’ But it surely actually is not. And I really feel like I have been portrayed as the last word villain. My errors that I’ve made on digicam stay on eternally. And also you talked about one thing concerning the habit of doing actuality TV and the way in which that they at all times dangle that carrot in entrance of you, like, ‘Nicely, that you must inform your facet of the story in any other case it is gonna be written for you.’ And that is terrifying. So I virtually went again, I do know simply due to that.”

TMZ caught up with “Vanderpump Guidelines” govt producer Lisa Vanderpump on Aug. 16 and requested what she considered Leviss’s interview, to which she responded, “I actually have not seen it, however I will work, and guess what? I paid greater than an intern. I heard about that.” When requested if Leviss deserves to receives a commission extra, Vanderpump mentioned, “She acquired very well-paid. She acquired paid $361,000.”

Filming for season 11 of “Vanderpump Guidelines” is at present underway, but it surely seems to be like Leviss is not going to be returning. On Aug. 17, Leisure Tonight reported that Leviss is not going to be part of the forthcoming season. “There was a chance up till just lately she’d be returning for the brand new season, however in the end determined towards it,” a supply instructed the outlet. “Rachel is targeted on her psychological well being journey and knew going again to the present would open her as much as trauma she’s been engaged on therapeutic. Rachel is trying ahead to what the long run holds for her.” Reps for each Bravo and Leviss didn’t reply to POPSUGAR’s request for remark.