Connie Boss Alexander has spoken out to Folks about her emotions because the lack of her son, Stephen “tWitch” Boss, greatest identified for his DJing gig on The Ellen DeGeneres Present.

Final December, Boss was discovered lifeless in Encino, Los Angeles. His dying was dominated a suicide by self inflicted gunshot wound to the pinnacle. He was 40.

“Generally it feels prefer it was simply yesterday, after which different occasions it feels prefer it’s been so lengthy since I’ve seen him,” mentioned Connie.

“After I take into consideration him, I attempt to not dwell on how he left this earth,” she added. “This isn’t completely the top. That’s the place my peace comes from.”

Their final dialog, she mentioned, was a check-in by her son within the wake of an sickness.

“I’d been sick, so he texted to ask how I used to be feeling,” mentioned Connie. “That was the final time we talked. To the extent that Stephen could have been in a Black melancholy — no, not Stephen. He was so in tune with analyzing and attempting to make himself higher, studying self-help books, so this got here as an entire shock.”

She added that suicide “was not my first thought — that it had been his hand. I actually thought one thing had occurred to him.”

Within the subsequent months, Connie mentioned she’s doing “a number of introspection” and reanalyzing the previous.

“Did I miss one thing? Did he imply one thing when he mentioned this?” mentioned Connie. “At this level, I’m in realization, I assume. After I get up within the morning, it does hit me that, oh my God, he actually isn’t bodily right here. However then in my head I can hear him say, ‘Hey, Mother. I’m OK.’”